Wednesday, November 28, 2018

Gratitude - The Ye Olde Thanskgiving Post

I know, I know, Thanksgiving in the US has come and gone. I ran out of time and chose being with people I love over writing about them. But, now I have a minute to sit down and get my thoughts together.


It's no secret that I believe manners are one of most crucial things we can do for each other. Hate or love or be completely neutral... we can still be polite. Use please and thank you. Wait our turn. Not chew with our mouths open and such.

And part of that is the simple words, "Thank You." Thanks for that compliment. Thanks for that little bit of help. Thanks for showing appreciation. I probably say thank you a dozen times a day at least.


According to most dictionaries gratitude means the above. Thankful appreciation for kindness, for favors or benefits received. That works for me.


You may be wondering, well what are you so thankful for this year? It's true that there's some problems in my real life, some looming large on my personal horizon. But they are not things I can do much about, as they have to do with choices made by others that I have to depend on in part for my living conditions and whatnot. I'm disabled, in chronic pain and sometimes I feel like a package more than a person, just moved around almost as an afterthought.

But that's okay. I have a roof over my head, food to eat, a warm blanket to lay under and my gazillion meds provided. I'm far better off than most. So I'm grateful for that to start with. For now at least I'm not worried about the necessities of life. That's a big thing on it's own and no matter my hardships, I'm grateful.

I'm grateful to have second life, where I walk and dance and shop til I drop and laugh til I'm sore some times. I forget about my pain. I forget about things I'm worried about. I am free to just be myself.


I am grateful to have found people who make me smile on the daily. Who hug me when I'm hurt or just because. Who listen to my silly stories and make me laugh with their own. Who let me be part of their lives every day.


I'm grateful to be accepted as myself, emotional, passionate, fierce, silly, playful and ridiculous, and loved for those things about me.

The difference between this thanksgiving and last could not be more marked. Last year I felt lonely, abandoned, lost, quiet, unsure, worried, frightened. So many scary feelings.

This year I felt included, loved, protected, happy, safe, and many times joyful. I owe this difference to the dear people in my sl.

Aisling Landar
Dame Roxan
Sin Roxan
Brian Rhodes-Lescher
Dresden Rhodes-Lescher
Kaid Hawker

I have no words to express the difference you have made to me. I only hope you know you are dearer and more precious to me than any diamonds ever could be. May you be blessed in your lives as you bless mine.



No formal credits today cause that's not the point and I'm emotional.

I am wearing new Blueberry clothing, hat hair by No_Match, jewelry by RealEvil, Swallow, Amala, and MarmaladeNy. Boots are a group gift by N-Core.

I hope you all had a lovely warm and thankful Thanskgiving. ♥

Friday, November 16, 2018

Moody November

This time of year always is hard for me. While everyone else is rushing about planning things with family irl,  I am usually on my own. Don't get me wrong, a lot of times I prefer being on my own.. .but holiday time with Thanksgiving and Christmas etc always seems especially or extra solitary.

On top of that my body hates the cold weather and my brain hates the lack of sunlight and well I'm a moody and sometimes even downright tearful person. I'm lonely... which, I have lovely sl family that I love a lot but... there's still this... hollow feeling if I let myself think about it very long. It'd be nice to ring in the new year with someone special, you know?

But anyway... I landed on a sim that had rain and the rain suited my mood. However, it was a shopping sim so getting some good rainy photographs that didn't have vendors in the background proved to be more difficult than I hoped.

So I headed over to Luane's World  where she has a lot of great landscaping, posed items and such and wandered around until I found this bench and a beautiful angel statue.


The idea of it, of an angel watching over appealed to me and comforted me at the same time. So I started taking pictures, doing my best to get a misty and wistful ambience going. It wasn't rain, but it was still moody and gray and comforting.


I couldn't help but think a bit of that Sarah McLachlan song - Angel. "You're in the arms of the angel, may you find some comfort here." No, I'm not thinking about dying per se, but I do suffer from pretty dark depression sometimes.


I especially liked this shot with me looking up at the angel's face, forming a heart behind me. Because yes, I do still believe in love, Forever. Always.


Shine a little light on me please. Just a pretty and atmospheric shot, imho.

And last but not least a face shot. Are my eyes like an angels? You be the judge. ♥


Credits:

Basics:

Body: Maitreya Lara 4.1 with bento hands and tiptoe feet
Head - Catwa Lona Head with rigged eyes
Hair - Zelda by Lamb
Eyes - Cecile beauty set for Lookbook by Euphoric



Clothing:
Top - Vaxer Connie outfit 
Skirt - Blueberry Penny Skirt Ocean
Shoes - Reign Mia Stilletos currently @ Equal10  really like these shoes, just wish they had separate texture change for the cute lacings on the back, you get 3 metals, 3 soles and 25 colors!

Appliers
Shadow - Fall Eyeshadows by Izzie's currently available @ The Liaison Collaborative
Lipstick - Stolen Kisses for Catwa by Shiny Stuffs - currently @ Anybody
Hairbase - Essential hairbase 4 by Just Magnetized
Nail Polish - Spiced Cider Fatpack by Koffin Nails

Attachments
Nails - Empire Medium Stilleto nails.
Choker & Necklace - Kibitz - Lucrecia Silver
Rings - Spotcat Amore Rings currently @ the Tres Chic event (note I sometimes have a problem getting the hud to work but it may be I'm just too impatient lol)
Bracelets - Aurora Bracelets by Real Evil Industries


My poses are various choices from Foxcity (love their poses and backdrops)

Windlight settings were from Trinetty and Alchemy Immortalis.
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