Of Juiciness & Sisters

My sisters and our family did some fun things this past weekend as a family, a party, a halloween haunt and lots of shopping. All of us were not there at all times and of course I missed the Rhodes-Lescher side, but it was an amazing time over all.

At one point my sister Ash and I found ourselves alone, always dangerous (lol) and we were at the vanity sim. Our conversation went like this...

Me: Oh, I love that jumpsuit, but I'm afraid it's going to make my butt look enormous.
Ash: Oh , I bought that. I thought the same thing. But people can just enjoy my juiciness.
Me: That's good enough for me *buys*.

So, that's how I ended up in this jumpsuit by Scandalize. It really is awesome. You get two versions with sleeves or without, and ombre or plain. And those strings, let's just say they were popular. Ahem.

The black has pink! ombre so of course I had to buy that color. This is just at my home land, nothing special, The deck is part of a house by L2 Studios. If you have not been there looking for builds, go now, do not pass go, do not collect 200 bucks.

The gazebo you see a piece of there is by Atelier Visconti

The shop for AV happens to be right next to Wasabi hair so if you land at the  hair store, go right or follow the beacon to get there.

The chaise and umbrella in the background is by Chez Moi, one of my favorite "couple" furniture shops.

The planters are by Ariskea and the window boxes you can barely glimpse are by Myth. I tend to mix and match and I'm sorry to say that the pool and deck hadn't had time to fully rez and I didn't notice, blah, eep! Trust me when I say it's awesome.

Now back to the jumpsuit!

Did I say amazing, because yes amazing. Girl look how good this looks!

I am wearing the new Truth group gift "Batty" with this and the Lucy Choker necklace from Kunst and I put on a nice pair of high plats  and I was good to go.

This is just gratuitous cleavage now, lol, sorry not sorry.  The plants to my right are from Hive and the Deck and pool with chairs you can now see properly is from Trompe Loeil

And no I did not take any booty shots! Wow I am failiing a bit at this blogger gig. One last shot of my face because I like my face. Also you can see the choker in a little bit more detail as well.

Oh well, hope you enjoy the pictures anyway, Full details below!



Basics:
Body - Maitreya Lara 4.1 with bento hands
Head - Catwa Lona head.
Shape - Lilo's fit -Lucia for Lona - modified by me (please note, this shop does not *usually* offer demos)
Eyes - Avi-Glam Prestige eyes in Lavender
 Ears - LeGene - Dreamy Unicorn
Hair - Truth - VIP gift Batty

Appliers:
Eyeshadow - I had changed heads and I cannot recall the name of this makeup. I have combed my inventory trying to find it and no luck. If you recognize it, if it's yours, please let me know so I can credit you . (Lovely Ohmai in world)
Lipstick - Starlit by LuxRebel for Catwa
Hairbase - Slay Baby by Just Magnetized for Catwa
Skin - Sybil by  Glam Affair for Catwa tone 006
Nail Polish - Classic Glitter Pro Palette by Cazimi

Accessories:
Choker - Lucy Choker by Kunst (part of sale a palooza and matching earrings are also available)
 Rings - (I know you can't really see them but in the interest of completeness) Free Spirit Rings (Maitreya) by Yummy
Hand Bracelet - Amala - The Robyn Hand Bracelet
Shoes - Ramona by Fashion Addict

Outfit is currently available at this round of the Vanity event, run and get it!


Thanks for reading! Poses by Foxcity!

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Family...

Recently, I've had cause to count my blessings. In real life, I'm struggling...living with a house mate who suffers from npd (narcissistic personality disorder) is a trial to the heart and soul. Over the years, I've read a lot on the subject and sadly, it isn't even their fault in the end. A pernicious circumstance of feast or famine, love or rejection is believed to be the cause of this disorder.And worse, it's virtually impossible to treat since the sufferer can't comprehend the possibility that he  or she needs therapy in the first place.

So, I've had days of deep crying screaming fits where I said going to jail would be better than this.

It's tough to be even slightly dependent on someone who views you as the millstone around their neck.

But, and it's a big giant BUT.

The family I have found in SL gives me so much happiness, and a sense of warmth and confidence I have not felt in a long time. I used to look at other families with envy and yearning, wistfulness.

But now I have that. I'm so grateful to my precious Roxan sisters, Dame and  Ash, to my equally precious brother in law Sin, to my darling Rhodes-Lescher brothers Dresden and Brian and to my sweetest Rhodes-Lescher sister Lessa. Your constant love, companionship and support help me keep going every day.   You're such amazing people and I am privileged to be among you.

I won't say every day is just sunshine and stars. But it's worth getting through the bad days to get to the good ones.  I've had low points where I wondered why I was still waking up every day. I won't front and pretend it's all peachy. If you know me well, you know I have bad days physically and mentally. But  have good ones to... and those make up for a lot.

This past weekend was two whole days of good. Because of you. ♥

This is nothing but a quick gyazo snap of us, myself, my sister Dame and my sister Ash. I love you girls. Roxan Family Inc!

Over the weekend, I dressed up as a witch in my own very unique way. Pink Witch wins. Another simple gyazo snap.

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So...Absinthe Dreams

I'm hosting now a few times a week at this beautiful club, owned by my new adoptive family. The music is eclectic and we also have live performers there. I was really scared the first time I hosted but gradually I am getting the hang of it and finding that I enjoy it. The kind tips I receive also help my shopping addiction. ;)

You can find directions to Absinthe Dreams here, and check out their page on SocialVR here.
Especially check out the beautiful photos of the club. Like this one, taken by my big brothers Brian and Dresden.

It's been a little over a week since my last post which is longer than I usually like to go but, there's been rough spots healthwise with a lot of super bad headaches and some fibro flaring. But right now, knock wood, I'm doing pretty well.

There's also been some real highs and lows relationship wise as well. I realize now I did what I always do which is hope too hard and throw myself in heart first. I don't know that I know how to be any different... maybe this is part of my "never really grew up" thing that people comment on from time to time. I always think that love will win out, even though I have ample proof that isn't the case. I feel stupid about this and I guess it looks like I don't respect others' thoughts. If wishes were fishes and all that.

But on the upside, I've been accepted by both the Rhodes-Lescher family and by the Dame and Sin Ross family. I can't complain about that, in fact I'm very happy and grateful for their love and kindness. It feels good to be a sister again and to have that sense of belonging.

 

 I didn't take pics of myself this time for a surprise, ha, but I did take this one of Dame and I, also edited by me. I hope later to take pictures with other family members too.

More blogging soon. ♥

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In this house...I do love...

I haven't been blogging much mostly cause of two things 1) I've been busy because I moved into a new place on second life and 2) my head is killing me every single day. The little imps in my skull need to give it a rest already.

There's also a new development happening in my slife which is keeping me smiling even through the pain. I keep hanging on as they say

Saw this, and yeah... it's just me in my house, but the ideas still apply.

My new home is on the Island of M., it's so beautiful there. I took some beauty shots of it.

I can't take credit for most of the decor and landscaping, that was done by the talented owner of the island. It's very private so Im not mentioning names or anything like that. My pictures were taken in super large pixel size using windlight settings from Jackson Redstar aka Jax. You can download them in a zip file here.

On this last pic though most of the decor is mine, aside from the rails, thermometer and surfboard and I like how it looks so far. :)

 Edit: 1) I changed and moved things around so now it looks like this. -  

I didn't edit the image so it its what it is, but I'm happy. This is just a gyazo shot, and ignore the chair that didn't rez completely.  LOL

Anyway. Decor is from all over so, sorry folks no credits cause I'm evil. Except that that Hey Ya'll sign is from a gacha by Brixley. I'm very fond of it.

 

Here's a couple shots of me sitting in those chairs (i changed it from this blue teal to white) gotta love porch sitting.

Style notes: Lona Head  - Catwa, Maitreya Lara Body, Lilo's Fit shape edited heavily, eye appliers by Arte, hair base by e.vary, lipstick by LuxRebel, Eyeshadow by AlaskaMetro and Shiny Stuffs (i layered them) Tattoo by Nanika, hair by Dela, top by...  honestly don't remember. Decor by various. Ears by Swallow, Necklace by Cae

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A brief history of well... me.

This is a brief history of my online presence. I won't list all the screen names and pen names I've used over nearly 20 years online but suffice to say I been here a long ass time. Also, I'm not a fan of the decency police.

An example, I was online way back in 1996. Yep before some of you maybe were even born yet. I don't judge you, you don't judge me, okay? (Ageism is ugly)

But back then, the big thing was aol. In those by gone days, aol had chat rooms and it was on dial up sistah.  Later on we progressed to ethernet but like many things. When it first started, there was nobody going around telling everybody they couldn't talk about sex or flogging or whatever the hell you wanted. And it was all text based. Cause that's what there was. 

Someone always comes along and tries to police everyone else. I never understand why it gives some people so much pleasure to go around telling others what they can't do when what they are doing has nothing to do with them and also is hurting exactly nobody.

Anyway... so, we had chat rooms and there were chat rooms for different topics. There were chat rooms for, as it might be, New Submissives (tm) or to meet people or for whatever. I tended to enjoy hanging out in the roleplay rooms once it dawned on me that right in front of me people were writing interactive fiction. It was amazing. There were some very good writers around.

I dabbled in all kinds of different writing until the decency police came along. There is no amount of eye rolling that I can even do to express how aggravating I find the decency police. What consenting adults do in private or in semi public like in a chat room marked Slave Marketplace is up to them. Yes, still bitter many years later.

Then the decency police arrived and suddenly we weren't allowed to even have a chat room named like that. People didn't have places to meet and chat and rp the way they once did. Eventually, it was the end of an era, and even in the end, the first nail in aol's coffin.

For a while after that, I rpd exclusively in text based games in places like livejournal and it's clones like journalfen. I loved that, but it also got wearing. When you are rpiing with someone else, that person is depending on you to be there and vice versa. And sure, real life comes first, but that doesn't mean it's not difficult. Especially when real life is kicking your ass.

And not to mention the fact that Livejournal etc got less and less friendly to things that might not be considered "Decent". What once was a major gathering place for fandom and a huge storehouse of fanfiction in dozens of fandoms has become mostly a ghost town. That is very much responsible for the birth of a03. Fandom as a whole decided they wanted a place to post, write, comment, and store fanfiction for the forseeable future. Fandom continues to pay for the archive in yearly donation drives. I write there. Most of my fandom friends do too.

That lead me to tumblr where I happily rpd a variety of many things for quite some time. But Tumblr too began to fall out of fashion when they started to advertise to hell and back and also to limit things we could search. Yeah you can turn off the safe search whatever function but still, I don't need anybody else to police my interests. And before you say yeah but there are kids there. Yes, and? Their parents should be doing their job of knowing what their kids are doing instead of expecting everyone else to do it for them with decency police.

 The minute you start to try to police other adults in their own free time where no one is harmed, that's a very slippery slope. And yet, it continues happening.

But I found sl from journal fen believe it or not. And been here ever since. I'm on tumblr and twitter still too... but there's still always someone there trying to tell everyone else how to behave.

But I've been on sl since 2006 and I've never really left since though I've taken some long breaks, mainly when some one broke my heart and then stepped on it. I am not always comfortable with this pixel world where you can see things that I used to only write about. There's such a thing as being too real I guess. But here I still am.

 Took this pic while I was sitting feeling lonely in a crowded room, just like real life. I know that to get something out, you have to put something in, but I must say, the effort is exhausting sometimes.

Also can I just say I'm really tired of animations which assume that everyone is 8 feet tall and skinny as hell? Also with non proportionate arm length and so on. Yeah.

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